Does it really exist? I thought I made it up in 9th grade as a funny pseudo-organization to write prank letters to people from because of the initials. They're funny.

Geddit?

Wishy-washy is my middle name. Also cynicism is too. A middle name. Mine. I mean.

Re-reading old journals: my favorite method of procrastination. One of the funniest moments was in Bio when we made ecosystems in a bottle and the teacher said, "What do you see in your bottle biology?" (That's what they were called.)

"Death!" this kid said.

"What died?" asked the teacher.

"Everything!"

Oh those. Freshman year is always the bestest isn't it? So I should look forward to next year?

I mean, I'm so much better prepared for college than I was for high school. I mean, I actually know how to talk like someone from the 21st century now. I know all the memes. Well. I listen to pop music. My Flesch-Kinkaid score thingy for conversations (if such things exist) is practically preschool.

I have dumbed down, chilled out, and become relate-able. I think.

Oh if only you could see me now!

I'm not convinced. Just watch. The instant I've stopped using SAT words in conversation, everyone else will have started and they'll look at me like "who is the drunk who stumbled into the Ivy League?" I'M SORRY I'M STUPID! I KNOW MY COLLEGE ADMISSION WAS JUST A FLUKE!

Yes, all I know for certain is I will be late to class more than once, I will most definitely get lost, more than once, I will cry, I will embarrass myself, I will mess up, I will make friends, I will survive. Isn't that life?

Speaking of.

I'm still working on my general life survey actually--a bunch of questions I've always been curious about and so want as many answers from as many different people as possible. So far I have:

1. Does listening to Takuya's voice consistently blow your mind?

I add to it:

2. Do you ever feel consistently misunderstood? Do you question the motives behind friendships and cynically believe that no friendship is created without ulterior, selfish motives? Do you wonder if we should kill the idealistic concept of honor?

DO YOU FEEL THE EMO?

Goodnight moon. Goodnight cow jumping over the moon. Goodnight life. Goodnight brain that hasn't done anything productive for the past month.

I have no expectations. Buddha would be proud. I am well on my way to being happy.

So there.